I Am Home.

I was released from the hospital a little after noon today, just after my last scrumptious meal - A grilled cheese sandwich on Texas toast with some tomato soup and cheesecake. Just a 2 day stay this time, not 2 weeks. Phew. I'm so relieved.

I'm on the worst kind of bed rest. I can get up to go to the bathroom. That's about it. I did decide that I would get up and eat with my family as well. And I do want to spend parts of my day lying on the couch so I can feel like I'm a part of home life. I think the saddest part is that I can't lift anything. That's right. I can't pick up my darling daughter. What a little dagger to the heart. I know it's temporary. [This is where I'm holding back a few tears.] It is temporary. And soon enough I will have my little Magnolia in my arms.

My husband is a Saint. He is taking it all on. And it's nice because it's him. It means I don't have to worry about a thing. When he has to go to school and work, we're having some volunteers from church take Cora. I'm so glad he is just taking one class this semester. Kindness and service never cease to amaze me. The very thought makes my cup to runneth over.

And let me just tell you that I am holding out hope that some day, perhaps with my next pregnancy, I will walk into a hospital all round and ripe and ready to deliver. I will have that baby because it is time, and a few days later, I will leave with the weird deflated belly that a woman can't quite be prepared for, all set up for late night feedings, diaper changes, the works when it comes to how a newborn completely transforms a home. You know, just one hospital visit. A girl can dream.

PS: My OB is flying to Oklahoma City tonight for training on the da Vinci robot. She flies back Tuesday night. How ironic, right?


  1. I've been thinking about you lately. It's nice to be able to keep up with you on facebook and your blog. I wish I was there to keep you company and see how big Cora has grown. I'm happy that you have found a wonderful OB. I will keep thinking 'big baby' thoughts for you :)

  2. BrieAnn!
    How wonderful you have a nice, loving hubby who will take care of what he can. It is frustrating though~
    At least Cora has places to go...and you're thinking about having another one...J/K
    I assume you forget everything but it just has not happened to me...yet.
    :0) I am just kidding and I know I will get to that point.Keep us posted & good luck

  3. i am so glad that you made it home. you may not be able to hold cora standing up but get some good snuggles in laying down!! i wish i was there to help...she could so play all day at my house! you are wonderful and i can't wait to see you and love on your babies!!

  4. I'm very relieved you are home. At least you are more comfortable there than the hospital. And I'm so glad Jake is home with you most of the time. (And that he's cool like he is.)

    Love you.

  5. Yes not being able to hold your child must be hard and it is only for a little while. You're a strong young lady BrieAnn and a wonderful mother. Love you!

  6. I'm so glad you are home! Hopefully the play dates for Cora will distract her and and you can get some good rest while she's playing and while Jake is in class. Isn't it great to have a husband who will do ANYTHING to help his family and wife?! More and more I'm realizing what a rare thing it can be.
    Maybe the medicine will hold little Magnolia off for a little longer, then you can tackle your floors again and help her along the way?!:)



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